We have been together for many years and we have had an intense relationship. When we first began I thought you were everything, in fact, I built my entire world around you.
Almost everything I did was to serve you, to meet your needs. I set up my classroom (in rows and purchased dividers) to service you.
I spent endless hours making up NEW elaborate tests every year and every semester just so I could collect you. Each time thinking, this time I’ll get it right.
I would display columns of you to parents, students, administrators and even other teachers! Believing you had the same intentions as I.
I wrote policy after policy on how to collect you. Each September anew, believing I could finally make sense of you and get a handle on how you impacted my life.
I spent days of my life deciding who should get you and how you should be shared. I discussed, explained, analysed, collected, emailed, and compared you; it was endless and never-ending.
You demanded so much of me, that at times I had to take days off of work just to manage you.
I gave you all of this and more and look how you have treated me and others in return?
You told me you were going to help children learn, you promised. These are children here! Ones who are full of curiosity, passion and raw enthusiasm.
You made a mockery out of my intentions to share my joy for learning with children. At first I believed that you had everyone’s best intentions at heart. Now I realize that you are manipulative, self-serving and controlling. Instead of caring about learning you cause children to become mindless point collectors who care for little more than “is it for points?” and “how many points is it out of?”
You single-handedly caused children to become highly developed point-gathering-strategists, who care nothing about learning, NOTHING. Instead they’ve become fixated on the mindless manipulation of you and how you are acquired. You are the direct cause of cheating, stealing, truancy, stress, mistrust and homework clubs (where one student at a time does the work so the group can acquire points).
You make students, say aloud and right to my face “Well if the lab is not for points, I don’t want to do it! Why bother?” Do you know how much that hurts?
You have made me say things like “Get it done or I’ll take it in for points!”. Or even worse “I’ll have to take points off for that!”
But you know what is worst of all, the final straw and the biggest insult?
It is that you made me begin to hate what I love most.
I love to learn, I love it! Even more so, I love learning with children. It might sound corny to you, but I feel exhilarated when I see a child light up when they are fully engaged in the magic flow of learning.
Over the years, you have demanded more and more of me. In fact, I have no time for anything else; you have kept me from learning, interacting, and growing as a teacher and as a person.
I wasn’t confident before, to break free from you and stand up for what I believe in. I doubted myself and everyone told me I could trust you.
But points, I am ready to break free of you and the ball and chain that is holding me back.
Hear that SBG? I am on the market.