Lately I have been feeling conflicted…
On the one hand I feel very excited about the change on the horizon that I see, but on the other I feel very frustrated with the speed at which we are moving to the horizon.
I now have a voice in my own learning and feel empowered by this but yet feel stifled and controlled in certain situations that seem contrived to meet someone else’s agenda.
I work with people who share the load and infuse me with ideas and I am inspired to bring my best game but I continue to struggle with those who want the work of learning done for them.
I am continually blown away by the talents and passion for life of students but see the status quo of the system as squelching this passion.
I have conversations that light up my imagination to dream the impossible and then am left bereft with silence in between.
I feel immense joy when working with students in an authentic manner and then feel intense sadness when I come across students who have checked out and aren’t coming back.
I have a new-found taste for risk but the flavour of the month is safe and sound and make everyone comfortable.
When I go out in the morning, leave my class, kids and all, behind, to hear about __________________ as being innovative and how it might change my classroom practice…
I know in a heart-sucking moment, that the cat is out of the bag, it is out, and is not going back in. I could not make it I even if I tried.
And this is not about better or judgement, it is about wondering… How did I get here? Why did I come?
What if I can’t go back? (Half of me wanting to keep going and the other half wanting to return, and feeling guilt for the uncertainty.)
It’s about wondering how do we bridge this widening gap? Can we bridge this gap? Do we build a bridge, is there one to be built?
What if this chasm continues to grow?
Do you see a widening gap? If so what do you do to bridge it?