I blog to untangle my most treasured thoughts and ideas, strands glistening, but interwoven in a complicated knot.
I blog to soften my heart and sharpen my brain.
I blog because I can’t figure it out on my own…I never could…but now I can admit it, to myself, to the world (who never really cared anyway).
I blog because you can’t hear me through these classroom walls.
I blog because I have no choice.
I blog to reach out a tenuous, tender and tentative finger towards you.
I blog to pry open this oyster and find the pearl.
I blog to hold up a rear view mirror and trace the long windy path I have travelled.
I blog because reflection feels really good.
I blog to let down this heavy anchor in rough seas in this safe and calm bay.
I blog because I need to connect to you.
I blog to knit together the bits of yarn you have shared with me, strikingly eclectic; I unravel it many times to examine each piece.
I blog because I cannot get it right the first time.
I blog to imagine the classroom of my dreams.
I blog to create brain-callouses so I can climb steeper hills next time.
I blog to sharpen my machete so I can chop ferociously through the undergrowth that grows faster than I can talk.
I blog to hook onto the zip line that crosses this deep unknown ravine.
I blog to call out…..HELLO…. have you found the edge yet?
I blog to rent the expensive shiny purses before I buy.
I blog to remember why I started down this path in the first place.
I blog to connect to my most idealist self and let go of my cynical one.
I blog because in the middle of the night when I hear my heart I need to listen.